Fake 1Malaysia

Recently, or only today...Namewee posted this video...waliao...

The people in the Seni dan Budaya department are really too "huangtang" ...

If let's say we make a movie that uses 50% Mandarin, or Tamil or Iban or Kadazan language, it's not considered 1Malaysia concept??? Not logic lo...

Random

It's 3am in the morning....

I'm supposed to be staying up to do work but, feeling very exhausted and no mood liao...

suddenly stumbled upon this almost-dead blog and xin xue lai chao post something...

For some reason I find this sem more relaxing than previous sems...

dunno y...

the workload is still a lot, yes, but probably less strain on the 'brilliant idea generating' side...

a lot of one-big-projects, therefore just one big idea or concept...

and this sem we have to draw comics...

something i never ever thought of or dreamt of doing!

and unexpectedly, i actually enjoy doing it...despite the endless stuff needed to be done.

this might sound random but watching Wang Lee Hom's videos and interviews motivates me!

I didnt really take notice of him previously...

I know he is very talented and knows how to play 10+ instruments, yes,

but i never realised how passionate he is about what he does.

Why is he so talented? It was because his passion towards music made him curious and strive to work hard.

And that made him one of the top artists of Asia...

anywayz...gotta go back to work....

lol

waliao...long time never post liao lo...

well, the reason why i suddenly appear here again is ...

i'm angry about something....$%^&*()_@#$%

FYI, i have been teaching piano for about 3 months now.

it was one of the factors that made me screw up my time management last sem...

but anywayz...it's only 2 students who are beginners...

and the real problem is :

THEIR MOTHER

ok, i know, i'm totally inexperienced, and this is the 1st time i'm teaching music part time.

they were naughty at 1st, but after i carried out some strategies, they are more and more obedient...

now, they are quite smooth in playing scales and can complete a whole grade 1 song, even though still a bit slow.

do u know that, it takes months to learn a song?

i myself sometimes take a year to get a song right, depending on how much i practice.

and, she thinks sending her kids to piano class will make them great pianists in one snap!

just because i cancelled one class, she goes on writing an email to her husband saying she hates me, leaving it open for her son to read it.

and now, just because i didnt teach her daughter songs from a certain book, she says she spend so much money to learn so few songs...

RIDICULOUS!!!

I heard all these through her son, 8 years old...

If u don't like me, please tell me directly, just scold me or whatever.

Don't send indirect messages through ur young son!

If u hate me, just ask to change to another teacher, LIKE I CARE!

I'm not here for the money, I merely earn RM80 per month for Goodness' sake!!

I wanna quit, but the kids would suffer if they have to change another teacher...

haiz...so no choice but to endure this godzilla...

黄晓明

昨晚梦到黄晓明。。。我回到中学，他竟然跟我同班！他好帅！眼神好酷。。。

我好想画他！

也许是压力减少了，头脑终于能发美梦。。。哈哈

好久没有为功课流眼泪。

记得以前刚开始接触visual drawing 的时候，面前放着一张白纸。老师给了题目，要我们画一个scene. 我脑子一片空白。花了3个小时，在班上眼睁睁看着身边的同学毫无困难的画，而我的纸是空的。那时候我好难过，躲到课室后面的厕所哭。

如今，我已经画了几十张想象画。你说，我进步了吗？我已经付出了很大的努力。可是现在我怀疑我是不是画画的料。不管付出多大的努力，还是一样差。也许我的能力有限。

对我来说，如果不能做到最好，那我宁愿不做。

我现在除了画画，还要忙其他的东西。今天一整天不在家。好多事情要想， 要处理。明天却要交功课，而我怎样都达不到我或老师的要求。

谁可以了解我所面对的压力？

我真的好辛苦。

我好想放弃。

求求你，别这样对我~

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好久没有为功课流眼泪。

记得以前刚开始接触visual drawing 的时候，面前放着一张白纸。老师给了题目，要我们画一个scene. 我脑子一片空白。花了3个小时，在班上眼睁睁看着身边的同学毫无困难的画，而我的纸是空的。那时候我好难过，躲到课室后面的厕所哭。

如今，我已经画了几十张想象画。你说，我进步了吗？我已经付出了很大的努力。可是现在我怀疑我是不是画画的料。不管付出多大的努力，还是一样差。也许我的能力有限。

对我来说，如果不能做到最好，那我宁愿不做。

我现在除了画画，还要忙其他的东西。今天一整天不在家。好多事情要想， 要处理。明天却要交功课，而我怎样都达不到我或老师的要求。

谁可以了解我所面对的压力？我真的好辛苦。我好想放弃。求求你，别这样对我~

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勤劳

我曾经非常厌倦听到别人说我很勤劳。

我曾经讨厌人家说我很勤劳。

其实连现在都还有几分讨厌。。。

如今，我太累了。

好吧，认了就认了。

你们要我认我就认了吧！

我不否认我是个非常勤劳的人！

勤劳又怎样？你以为我好对付？！

我没有天分，所以只好比别人努力十倍。

就因为这样，我才成了勤劳的人。

行了吗？

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Went out with my best fren today...

I'm in the midst of college-busyness now, but I just can't resist having some time off to spend time wif her.
I thank God so much for giving me such a good fren like her...
10 (almost 11) years have past, and we are still best frens...

even though we can't see each other every day,

our friendship has never faded.

I hope it stays this way, forever and ever.

I love you, my best friend in the world - QY.

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困

我觉得自己好困哦。。。
都长这么大了，可是还需要依靠别人。。。
我每时每刻都觉得自己没用，没出息。。。
以前一直以为钱不是重要的，
现在却领悟到，原来没钱用，让人非常无奈。
要买车子，却没办法赚钱去买。便宜的也好，老爷车也好，我不管，总之能够走的就可以了。
可惜，连最便宜的车都值几千块，我钱包没法挤出这笔钱。

向父母要吗？可笑！
那种行动只能显示出我的无能，我的无奈。
即使他们愿意买车给我，我也宁可不要。
其他东西我也没办法了，可是这么大的东西，
我只想靠我自己。
也许要等两年，五年，我也不晓得。。。
可是，
让我自己来吧！
看到身边的朋友都有车用，虽然大多都是父母送的，可是有时也难免会羡慕他们。






唉！









现在我去那里都觉得好无奈。。。












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How to train your dragon

watched "How to train your dragon" at mid valley today...
and it was surprisingly good.
at first i expected a predictable, childish, slapstick kinda movie, u know, all those "Chicken Little"-ish kinda movie...
but instead, it was an exciting movie with a heart.
it was more heart-warming and meaningful than i hoped for.
i dunno, i just dunno how to describe it...it's not just another kid's movie u know...
watch it! it's a movie worth watching!!

really feel like abandoning this blog la..haha
very conjested...


anywayz...


近来每一年生日，我都会有一样的念头：

我不想长大

（别想起SHE 的歌，我最讨厌就是那首歌了！）

眼睁睁看着别人在这个年纪达成许多自己无法得到的成绩，
也有许多人比我年纪小的，却已经达到极高的目标。
而我，都已经这个年纪了，却一事无成。





每一年我都是这样想。




哎！
如果我不想这个，开开心心的过生日那该有多好！



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My dear friend

I don't want to be known as just a companion for play or shopping...
I don't want to always be the person who takes the first move...
I don't want to sound like a person who is always so free but actually is in a busy hell...
I don't want to be a one-sided friend...
I don't want to be the friend who always remembers, but is never remembered...

I don't want our friendship to fade away...






All I want is for us to share moments with each other, regardless of how busy we are....
for no matter how busy I am, I always wish we were going through those hardships together.






Do you?













or have you found others who are better to replace such a terrible me?







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倚天屠龙记

终于放假咯！！！
本人已经很久很久没有看武侠片和小说了！
好想念江湖上的恩恩怨怨。
没关系，如今我东山再起，重出江湖，追看张纪中指导的《倚天屠龙记〉！
哈哈哈！！！

today i was humiliated in front of the whole orchestra...
it was SUCH A SIMPLE SONG and i just couldn't get it right...
and probably the "interference" from the others kinda made me even more confused...
and it just made me wanna quit...
i suck as a pianist, as a musician...
i'm not even worthy enough to be calling myself a pianist...
i failed badly at a piano competition, youtubers hate my videos, and i'm pulling the orchestra down..
i am not worthy to be involved in music.
after 10 years of learning music, and my standard is worse than a beginner.
i have no right to call myself a person who loves music.
i am a loser.
i suck.

and i lost all opportunity of being good at sports.
i was a fool.
i could have had a chance of being an athlete.
i just let it pass.
and it's almost history.
that golden opportunity might never come ever again.
again, i have no right to call myself an athlete.
i'm a loser.
i suck.

my art sucks too.
i didn't give 100 percent in this sem.
my artwork is not worth looking at more than 2 seconds.
i know that.
my grades say it all.
grades are not everything, but the process also says it.
i didn put all my effort.
or i maybe did put a lot of effort.
but it didnt work.
i'm going no where.
i'm not talented, and it doesnt help that i'm not putting effort.
i'm a loser.
i suck.

Malaysian artiste Penny Tai once said,"if i can't do the best in what i do, i'm better off not doing it at all"..
just read that statement and you will know.
i'm better off just doing nothing.
since i'm BAD at everything.
i'm not doing good in everything, so i'm better off just not doing it at all.

this is my personality.
accept it.
i'm such a perfectionist but i'm not doing what i expect of myself.
that's y i'm writing this emo post here right now.

someone please save me T.T...
it's hard chasing 3 dreams at the same time...
it's a constant pressure...
and it's killing me...
and i have gone too far to turn back...
if only i could learn to do this:

ENDURE

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Namewee CNY song

This song is really meaningful in a way, especially to us Malaysians...
really describes our feeling when we hear all those CNY songs over and over again every single year.

Another good one from Namewee!!!

Happy CNY everyone! Can't wait to run away to Terengganu, from all my assignments LOL!!!

人如果不用睡觉那该多好。。。










我现在
















快要

















疯了！！！！







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Daniel Lee

i saw Daniel Lee 2 days ago!
i was at ioi mall doing window shopping,
then my bro who was upstairs called me and said Daniel Lee was at Sense Cafe.

To tell the truth, i was a crazy Daniel Lee fan when Malaysian Idol 2 was on.
i even attended his debut album launch!
i used to buy every of his album, be it malay or chinese...
then slowly, the passion seemed to fade away...
not to say that i abandoned him la...
just that long time never checked his news like that la...
but everytime i hear his songs, the Malaysian Idol memories would come back...
and i still love his songs...

anywayz...so he was at Sense Cafe promoting his brand new album.
honestly, his new song is quite nice.
on that day, i happened to bring my camera along (actually for taking pics at Wendy's)...
so...Hooray! i took some pics of Daniel Lee...our very own Malaysian Idol...a singer i used to adore...