lelaki bodoh

dah lama tak sentuh bahasa malaysia...
jadi hari ini aku takkan guna bahasa lain...
saya kan rakyat Malaysia...
tapi memanglah ada perkara yang berlaku yang menyebabkan aku macam ini dalam "kiriman blog" (blog post, haha...betul tak terjemahan?) ini...
haiz....GERAMNYA saya memikirkannya....

di kolej hari ini,
memang saya yang cuai lah...
mana tahu kenapa dompet saya longgar sangat...semua kad penting terkeluar masa saya berjalan ke kelas...
lesen memandu, kad kredit, kad ID....OMG...cemasnya aku masa tu...
masa aku dah nak putus asa, s'orang lelaki panggil aku..
kononnya, dia terjumpa kad-kad itu, tetapi...
dia nakkan duit!
Cis...geramnya aku...
itu kan barang aku, takkan aku bagi duit untuk dapatkannya...
kau takde duit ke? macam ini nak dapatkan duit? kenapa tak boleh kerja baik-baik, dapat duit dengan cara yang betul?
nak balasan?
mulanya aku ingat baiknya orang ni, tak ambil kad-kad itu untuk kegunaan sendiri...
mana tahu rupanya kau orang macam tu...takde maruah diri dan harga diri...
sebenarnya kau memang bodoh...
kalau ambil kad tu bolehlah ambil beribu-ribu ringgit dari bank....tapi nakkan lima puluh ringgit drp aku pula...tak fikir langsung..huh...!
tapi nasib baik sayalah...
kau bodoh, aku untung....haha...
mampuslah kau...
carilah kerja...
janganlah buat hal-hal macam ni...

tapi saya memang kena berterima kasih kpd guru dan kawan2 saya yang membantu dan menyokong saya masa tu...
akhirnya lelaki itu putus asa dan pulangkan saja kad2 kpd saya...
kalau tidak, saya pun tak tahu macam mana...

TOA expenses

my expenses since the first sem...ON MATERIALS ALONE!!!
it's OVERWHELMING...

sick

been sick yesterday...
fever and indigestion.
today feeling much better after taking medication.

stupid maxis line

nowadays maxis line damn slow!!!
i can't upload videos to youtube!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
i desperately need to upload my video la...the piano comp deadline is coming soon leh...
and i need my teacher's comments on my songs....

hari raya holiday coming soon o...
too bad onli two days...T.T
this sem all our lecs are very good..hehe...
at least in my opinion la...
i find that they are very sincere in their teaching...
they really really want to help the students in their improvement...
all also quite nice..except Kin Sun la..haha...
he's a bit serious and fierce lo...and "dai pai"...lol
of course la....he's a very successful illustrator ma...

this sem we have a lot of digital painting...
quite fun and interesting...
it's quite similar to traditional painting, just that it's more convinient, faster, and cheaper...
but, it lacks something that traditional media gives, i dunno...maybe the feel of paint? or the feel of "REAL" brush strokes?
it is somehow different...
but for sure, it will NEVER beat the beauty of watercolour...
i miss watercolour..T.T

i know this is very ugly,
somemore got C-...haiz...very normal for me lo...alwayz get this kind of marks de...since i enter The One...no, i'm not being humble...this is the truth...
but just show u lo...how my 1st few digital painting looks like...
don't like also, it's ur problem lo...haha...
i don't care wat u think, i'm still going to post it here..
so u hv no choice but to see it...MUAHAHAHAHAHA

the TOA terror

it seems that i'm the only CD085-2 student left in my class!!!!
AAAAARRRRR!!!
it's like every semester, there are less and less students in our IL085-1 class...
like ppl are dropping out one by one,
and you wonder who would be next...
haha....
ok la...not that serious...
but really leh...
there's this terror of failing...
not being able to continue to the next semester...
and worse for me...
I WILL LOSE MY PTPTN IF I FAIL ANY SUBJECT!!!!


now we have 6 days of class a week...OMG...
do any other colleges have that kind of system too??
i don't think so...
now my every SINGLE day is UNAVAILABLE!!!
at least every morning...
mon to sat morning class, then the remaining sunday: my activity day in which morning i have wushu, afternoon orchestra....
AHHHHHH!!!
no rest for me...
actually got la...every afternoon...
but not enuf leh...T.T

my piano is coming back tomorrow!!!!
HOORAY!!!
my baby....i miss u so much...

and my mum is coming back from Brisbane, Australia sunday morning...
the house is currently messy like hell...lol...
been helping my dad with the housework...but it seems to never end....haha

Please...

Don't think I'm stupid...

and


Stop speaking to me like u are ordering me to do something...

new goals - and my ultimate goal

so the new semester is starting...
this holiday, i had accomplished a lot...
maybe not in terms of drawing or improving my skills...
which i will never be the best in because there will always be people who are better than me...
so i have realized that it is pointless being the best, and being the best doesn't mean that you are the best, if u get what i mean...
the important thing is to be unique and true to yourself...

now i strive to improve my piano skills,
now that i will have six days of class a week, i will have to plan my time carefully,
so that i can practise.
i vowed to go back to wushu again, but it seems that time is so scarce that i have to put that aside for a little while...probably when there's a selection later, i will go...

and my writing...
well, as very few ppl know...
my biggest dream is NOT to become the world's greatest, most famous, richest illustrator blah blah blah.
my whole reason for even venturing into art is because of my dream to become a published writer.
and i know that it is impossible for a full time writer to have regular meals in Malaysia...
and i needed life experiences.
i neglected writing for a long long time to focus on my endlesss assignments.
but now i realized that i really shouldn't neglect it entirely.
if i do, it is like giving up my biggest dream of all.
so, now i have to try and squeeze out some time to improve on my language and writing skills, as well as develop my own style as a homegrown Malaysian writer.

sorry for the half broken english + half big words...
haha...blog onli ma...that's y so chaplunk...
wait till u see my stories, then i will use very proper english.