seriously, i feel like quitting.
i'm not a quitter, i know.
and already so much money had been spent on me.
but every day the same thing comes to my mind.
what am i doing? can i seriously keep up with those crazy standards?
i'm dreaming an impossible dream.
probably it's psychological problem.
probably it's all in the mind.
but it's haunting me.
i recently found myself walking up and down the stairs for no reason.
hitting my own leg and punching the wall, literally.
is it depression? maybe. a mild one.
it's like my brain isn't working anymore.
things were not like this when i was actually studying books.
but now, when i'm doing art, i feel that i'm going crazy.
the moment i look at my own drawing i feel like crying, even though it's not terrible.
i am stuck in this world and can't get out.
i'm not happy at all when i work.
what is happening to me?
somebody save me...